Not Going to Cali (as if I thought I would)

I thought what the heck, I'll register for a chance to go to the Michael Jackson Memorial.

Yes I am a closet fan. I was always a fan and had the Thriller album. I thought he did some really stupid stuff, but no, I don't believe he molested anyone. Call me naive, but now that he is gone, I feel like I can admit the way I feel. (I know at least one person who is sighing if he's reading this.)

I have been very upset since he died because I see it as a part of my childhood and my life that died. I didn't realize how upset I would be, but now that it is looking like a "murder," I feel even more upset. I know I seem silly but I can't help the way I feel.

So I registered for the heck of it. I felt if it happens I wanted to be there. I received an email this morning from AEG (could it be) but it was a "so sorry, you didn't get a ticket." Just as well. Do I really think I would be able to fly to LA that last minute? Probably not.

So to everyone that is there, wish him well in the afterlife, if he believed in it(Jahovah Witnesses' don't believe in it until Armagedden). I hope if his kids are there they can see how much people loved their DAD and I hope that helps their recovery.